Today I set a new national record in the sport that I love. On one breath, without any fins, I swam 82 meters and came out cheerful and smiling. However, I looked in the mirror and felt like a failure. Now, one thing might not seem connected to the other but hey…hook sentence, right? After …
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En octubre estaré en Grecia compitiendo en apnea de profundidad. Sería mi primera competencia desde el 2019 y la más grande en la que he competido. Es por eso que cuando se dio la oportunidad de participar en una competencia pequeña aquí en Amed dije “pues, ¿Por qué no?” Esta competencia sería de piscina y …
From an old journal found today, July 14th, 2022. These words were written sometime in the 2nd semester of 2018 and I don’t believe it’s a coincidence I find them today…a day after realizing how embedded my fear of ever feeling this way again and what that fear is capable of making me do. …
Thick. Dense. Heavy. Lethargic. You feel it in yoour body, how every cell just seems to get heavier, making the smallest of movement a huge effort. Staying in bed, sleeping, closing your eyes and existence to reality…it seems so much better than breathing, than moving, than owning these feelings. I feel the gray clouds over …
Today I behold all the abundance that surrounds us. -Deepak Chopra’s 21 day of abundance meditation. Day 1. I hear the crickets all around me, the frogs that croaked all night, the birds chirping as they fly by. I feel the fresh morning breeze, humid and cool making my hair strands brush against my …
Dear Clare Bear, I arrived in Bali last night under a full moon. I don’t think it was a coincidence that I would spend your second anniversary roaming the same streets we walked together. Today, as the Grab driver took a right turn, I remembered so vividly when I had you on the back …