Category: Thoughts and Words

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From 2018

From an old journal found today, July 14th, 2022. These words were written sometime in the 2nd semester of 2018 and I don’t believe it’s a coincidence I find them today…a day after realizing how embedded my fear of ever feeling this way again and what that fear is capable of making me do.    …

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Clouds in the air

Thick. Dense. Heavy. Lethargic.  You feel it in yoour body, how every cell just seems to get heavier, making the smallest of movement a huge effort. Staying in bed, sleeping, closing your eyes and existence to reality…it seems so much better than breathing, than moving, than owning these feelings.  I feel the gray clouds over …

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Abundance

Today I behold all the abundance that surrounds us. -Deepak Chopra’s 21 day of abundance meditation. Day 1.    I hear the crickets all around me, the frogs that croaked all night, the birds chirping as they fly by. I feel the fresh morning breeze, humid and cool making my hair strands brush against my …

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To Clare

Dear Clare Bear,   I arrived in Bali last night under a full moon. I don’t think it was a coincidence that I would spend your second anniversary roaming the same streets we walked together. Today, as the Grab driver took a right turn, I remembered so vividly when I had you on the back …

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Adeu Barcelona

Mi mamá siempre ha dicho que cuando uno viaja el alma aterriza uno o dos días después. Me lo ha dicho un par de veces después de yo regresar de algún viaje que estoy de ánimo extraño. Teniendo en cuenta que en las últimas dos semanas me he montado en cuatro aviones y he visitado …

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I am not ok, and that is ok

Anxiety. Depression. Mental health. Words that I hear being thrown around and that I’ve used never really considering them my own. “I have an amazing life” is a thought I have constantly and I’m incredibly grateful for all the adventures, trips, lessons I´ve had throughout my life…but sometimes that phrase is followed by “…then why …